If I could continue on with my words, I would tell you that you make me smile, even when I can't see you. Before you could say my name I enjoyed you, probably more than you enjoyed me. You made me feel homesick when I was away, you made me not want to leave the room when I was near.
When I'm with you I see the flowers better and fall more in love with the water at our feet. You make it new again, you make it fun again. Every song sounds like one we should dance to, every tear you cry should be noticed and tended to. I want to taste everything you taste and smell all that you smell; wondering if we are experiencing the same thing. It's new to you, it's not for me, but afterwards I love it more than before.
With you, messy hair is cute and morning breath is sweet, at least for me. I want to show you the world and protect you from it all at the same time. I see you years from now full of beauty and destiny, and yet...you'll always be the quirky baby blonde that runs funny and talks with a lisp.
If I could tell you a little more, I would tell you that God is good and life is hard. But don't get discouraged with that equation, because where God is there is hope, and hope changes the way we see everything. Making even this often hard life... wonderful!
I would tell you to dream big, big dreams. I would also tell you that the small things matter. You will experience more small things than big, but it's those insignificant day to day's that make you great when the moments of greatness fall upon you.
I would tell you to ask questions and to search them out. Ask hard questions and don't give up finding out the truth. I would tell you to feel what is inside of you. When you are happy, feel it. When you feel sad, cry it out. When you are excited, shout really loud in your room, or your car, or in a park, anywhere...just please feel it.
You have the cutest little voice now- singing songs only you understand, and I would tell you to keep on singing. You were made to sing. We were all made to sing. Nature likes to sing too, open your ears to hear her.
Read books and tell yourself stories as you walk past giant trees and rushing rivers.
I would tell you to look up at least once a day and give yourself permission to wonder, to be amazed, and once you find God, take the time to thank Him too. Jump in the leaves, play in the snow, run barefoot in the sand, lay down in fresh grass. Look for beauty in unsuspected places, once you look you'll start to find it.
I don't know it all, I am still a long way from figuring it all out. But if I could tell you anything, I would tell you that you could never be loved more than you are right now. Long before school grades and sports teams. Right now when you love makeup only because your Mommy does, and your tiny feet shuffle around in my shoes. Right now when the only boy in your life is Daddy, and Mommy is your best friend.
Long before you ever felt like you deserved or didn't deserve it...
You are lovely.
You are worth fighting for.
You are loved.
